So,today was the so called report card day.
Result sucks.so bad.
and yes I gotta admit that I'm upset about it,well who doesn't?Even others who are busy with activities still get better result than I am.My mind won't stop comparing myself with those better ones &yes I know I should be working hard to improve myself from now on.Atlease to make my own self proud and feel satisfied with myself..don't know why Im really not in the mood after taking my result.It just disappoint me yeah I know I was busy before that but still?!..not that I got last but just a few more.Sometimes I feel like its not fair and being not appreciated..not that Im not thankful enough but sigh..idk
I let my own self down,not mentioning my parents (even if they still don't know yet) and Allah.
but I can feel it.If they don't care,well I do.
Bursting into tears doesn't even help..all this feeling might be gone a week from now on and I might be doing the same mistakes again.or maybe not.who knows?
All i want is..well Allah knows.And amin for that.
I really don't have the mood now,so please don't do anything that make me pissed,seriously.
People might not understand what Im trying to tell here,no one ask you to.Just mumbling craps here..so yeah bye
