Life is full with ups and downs

So,today was the so called report card day.

Result sucks.so bad.

and yes I gotta admit that I'm upset about it,well who doesn't?Even others who are busy with activities still get better result than I am.My mind won't stop comparing myself with those better ones &yes I know I should be working hard to improve myself from now on.Atlease to make my own self proud and feel satisfied with myself..don't know why Im really not in the mood after taking my result.It just disappoint me yeah I know I was busy before that but still?!..not that I got last but just a few more.Sometimes I feel like its not fair and being not appreciated..not that Im not thankful enough but sigh..idk

I let my own self down,not mentioning my parents (even if they still don't know yet) and Allah.

but I can feel it.If they don't care,well I do.

Bursting into tears doesn't even help..all this feeling might be gone a week from now on and I might be doing the same mistakes again.or maybe not.who knows?

All i want is..well Allah knows.And amin for that.

I really don't have the mood now,so please don't do anything that make me pissed,seriously.

People might not understand what Im trying to tell here,no one ask you to.Just mumbling craps here..so yeah bye

After so long..

Assalamualaikum..

Miss me?I've been gone for so long aint I?

Yayaa,same old story everytime starting a post.Bored?Well me too!Anyway,here am I again on the holidays,staying up late wasting my time on the net.Well,exams are over! Not really a good news since my grades sucks.Failed add maths,well thats normal I guess? I bet theres more failed subjects lining up behind.Boo on me!Need to put much effort on it,next time.

Been busy with my bomba camp for the national,and yes we did win.And yes,I win! : ) It was a hell of an experience,since everything has change (the competition). Team work is really important,you know.Even had picnic with them bomba members on Saturday,now this time was a hell of a picnic.Not just buy splashing water but by using other stuff for example oil to be wiped on your face and all.Well almost everyone gets it.Obviously I gets it and hated every each of them who made it happen,joke.But still,i hate them for doing that. -.- even I know it was for fun,blahhh I didn't even get the chance to taste the cake I baked,how sad.Been thinking bout the cake lately,ok lol?

Im so tanned now cause of all this practice and picnic,but its worth it..somehow.

Well...now its time for me to have my fair skin back!! after so long,haha ima just gonna stay at home until this face right here be fair once more.Since there no more sports or anything after this,as sad as that may sound but its true alright nothing after this..ohh,how much i miss using my sport shoe,hahahha.just gonna let it be there full with dust,lol and gaining weight? T.T

Did i mention I've been coughing for idk how many weeks,since I come back from camp!

Cough cough coughing none stop,eat medicine somehow useless duh ofcourse useless if I only eat when I feel like to.Lol.And i hate PMS-ing I've been puking all night last night.. Its the worst feeling ever,you dont want to know.After eating medicine,it felt much better.

Sometimes,life is unfair you know?

Ok,gtg eat medicine now..Bye

Holidays is here

Hello everyone!Yes yes,a week holidays are finally here!

Finally I get to sleep and wake up late,so glaadd :)But,my test is right after the holidays.What a way to spoil my holidays,gotta study or else you know what.And wooaahhh!It has been ages since the last time I updated this blog,totally forgot that I got blog.Sorry!heh.Been very busy and lazy as usual.Din't actually online for the pass few weeks,was too lazy.Theres nothing much anyway,but that doesn't explain why I din't update my blog for months.Heh.Anywayyyy,can't believe its the month of March already!So fast,don't you think?

Its my dad's birthday today!Happy birthday daddy!Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki selalu,saya sayang daddy saya :) Thank you for everything <3 :)

Moving along,
Have you guys been in the situation when you got nothing to year but your wardrobe is full with cloths?
Wait,all girls has been in that situation.Its like nothing is there while everything is there,theres just nothing nor close to perfect.When you wanna wear that something,it went missing or you couldn't find it.Your room will end up very messy and still got nothing to wear!In the end you'll end up using the first thing you wore or something else you haven't try and had to clean up your room.Maybe it didn't happen to you,but it did to me.Theres even some stuff that I bought but I didn't use em.Wasting much?Thought of selling them but blah too lazy,for now.Someday maybe.

Till next time when Im not lazy enough to update,Assalamualaikum!

 I don't know where I'm going with my life anymore. Everytime I find something that makes me happy, it either goes away or something bad happens and the happiness goes away. I just want to stay happy forever.

& you come ruin everything

Yes,this feeling right here.Right now.Yes I hate that.

Take it away from me please,or atlease bring me away from here.Somewhere I don't have to think about all this stuff,It won't stop!Its killing me slowly..