What I think is really NOT what I think it is

Assalamualaikum and good morning everybodyy!

WARNING A REALLY LONG BORING UPDATE WITH WORDS.DON'T TELL ME I DIDN'T WARN YOU.

Whats up?No,its whats up with me not blogging for so so long..?One word : LAZY.
Hmm,I'll only update this blog when its holiday(like now) and at late night/morning (like now too) and its like 5:46AM now.So yeah.This blog is like my get-away place when Im really really dead boring and I don't know what to do yet I don't want to sleep.Sorry blog.Hehe.

Moving along,
How's life? Hmm,as always like a roller coaster.Ups and Downs.

Before that,

I've moved school.Something that I din't really expect will happen,even though I really wanted it to happen(if you read my older post you'll know about this).Its not that I din't expect it to happen,its just that I've lost hope on it cause this happen on September.Its already half of the year and I expect those kind of things to happen where I know those things only happens early of the year.Wait.Are you lost?Im talking about the letter offer of moving school.So,are you back into track?Ok.You know whats the schoking part? I have only less than a week to settle everything -schools,friends,buying stuff. Can you imagine how I had to rush everythings up? And lucky I did. Whats the sad and yet sweetest part is my classmates made a surprise and a video for me at school and my best friends surprise by coming over to my house(where they never did cause I never invite them,yes Im so mean) and bring me to hotel and dinner! And they sing,bought cake and make something like a portfolio about my friendship with them,Urghh just too sweet! And yeah they even printed alot of my pics with them for me to hang in my new school which I did but only in my locker.

Hm,I was really having a hard time that time,in between wanting to move or not.Cause the new school learnt so much and Im way left behind and all,can I even survive there?And Alhamdulillah I did.The first few weeks I admit it was really hard for me to make myself comfortable cause its just so different there,I just miss my friends back in my old school.Things just doesnt goes the same anymore.And I admit yes I cried.A few times.Lol.Thats normal right?And guess what my friends surprise me again by visiting me!They planned the whole thing,thank you to every each of them.I love them so much!After that,my days went well,and I had great time with them.And most importantly my result is better for some subjects,just that I fail add maths again.But I improved a lot,a little bit more to pass.So Im actually proud.Others subject too where I never pass in my whole life(ok maybe not my whole life,just this year) and I pass! With good result.Im really thankful with that.REALLY.Can't say how happy am I.hehehe.

Woah,thats a long explanation.I really do miss my friends ey?wait,I DO.

And now is the holidays,where so much things had happen.Good and Bad,ofcourse.
So Im only staying at home,oh yeah I went to KK last week.Nothing much.Hm,did I mention I have tons of homeworks to be done?Almost every subject! EVERY SUBJECT I TELL YOU.And I only started doing it,its like 1/10 finish.Oh,Im so dead.I only got 3 weeks to finish them all up,cause I'll be having family vacation after this.Im sure I can finish it,right?Chaiyo!

Oh yeah,I barely speak english and chinese in my new school.Uhh,I hope I won't suck in those language.Wait,Im already suck at chinese.Oh well.Haha!

This is a really long post ey?Nvm,its a replacement for not updating for a very loooong time.
And I really need to stop thinking negative thoughts,What I think is really NOT what I think it is.I just need to stop taking things seriously sometime.Ignore the world,just don't give a damn.Its my own fault also those things happen right?So its like i deserved it.I need to change,but yet again its hard..Trust don't just come back that easily right?Like Lady Gaga and Beyonce says Trust is like a mirror..I just hope that everything is going to be fine in the end and all I need to do is stop being so emotional.Oh,and one more thing,I love my parents no matter what,they are the reason why Im here.A friendly reminder to all and myself,I really need to remind that to myself everytime.Its just one thing I need to achieve,to make my parents proud of me.Thats all,I know I've been making alot of mistakes all this time but that doesnt mean I can't make them proud right?I need to work my ass of,as in really!

Ok,lastly..
Time has pass so fast,its December 2012 already and I'll be a senior next year!Ohmy.
No,I still can't believe that.I need to enjoy every second of it and make a memory of it.And before I start this  post I was wasting my time by looking at photos that I've been tagged on my facebook until the last piece of it on my new fb not my old fb,oh yeah thats also my reason why I don't want to delet the old fb.I wanna see the old pics of me.Oh anyway,I've been through so much mostly bomba and with my friends,plus when Im still in primary school.I just can't believe those thing are over now,its just something to be remembered.Thats just sad,don't cha think?

How I wish I can change back into time and watch myself again in live,being there watching myself going through everything.Do you get what I mean?I just miss everything! Im those kind who remembered things where people don't even remember them anymore,well obviously because its something a part of my life and I miss every each of it.Maybe I just need to accept the fact that Im old and I need to move on with my life..

Ok,the sun is already up and I can see them through my curtains,and I haven't sleep.Urgh,who care about sleeping when you should be enjoying every second of your life?This kind of time doesn't come always!You know.What time?Time that ME UPDATING MY BLOG.Haha!Oh yeah,Im on pms now so I hope I don't bother you with my crap and all,haha cause Im bored!

Until the next holiday if Im not lazy enough to update again,Assalamualaikum!

And its 6:28AM now..great.

Life is full with ups and downs

So,today was the so called report card day.

Result sucks.so bad.

and yes I gotta admit that I'm upset about it,well who doesn't?Even others who are busy with activities still get better result than I am.My mind won't stop comparing myself with those better ones &yes I know I should be working hard to improve myself from now on.Atlease to make my own self proud and feel satisfied with myself..don't know why Im really not in the mood after taking my result.It just disappoint me yeah I know I was busy before that but still?!..not that I got last but just a few more.Sometimes I feel like its not fair and being not appreciated..not that Im not thankful enough but sigh..idk

I let my own self down,not mentioning my parents (even if they still don't know yet) and Allah.

but I can feel it.If they don't care,well I do.

Bursting into tears doesn't even help..all this feeling might be gone a week from now on and I might be doing the same mistakes again.or maybe not.who knows?

All i want is..well Allah knows.And amin for that.

I really don't have the mood now,so please don't do anything that make me pissed,seriously.

People might not understand what Im trying to tell here,no one ask you to.Just mumbling craps here..so yeah bye

After so long..

Assalamualaikum..

Miss me?I've been gone for so long aint I?

Yayaa,same old story everytime starting a post.Bored?Well me too!Anyway,here am I again on the holidays,staying up late wasting my time on the net.Well,exams are over! Not really a good news since my grades sucks.Failed add maths,well thats normal I guess? I bet theres more failed subjects lining up behind.Boo on me!Need to put much effort on it,next time.

Been busy with my bomba camp for the national,and yes we did win.And yes,I win! : ) It was a hell of an experience,since everything has change (the competition). Team work is really important,you know.Even had picnic with them bomba members on Saturday,now this time was a hell of a picnic.Not just buy splashing water but by using other stuff for example oil to be wiped on your face and all.Well almost everyone gets it.Obviously I gets it and hated every each of them who made it happen,joke.But still,i hate them for doing that. -.- even I know it was for fun,blahhh I didn't even get the chance to taste the cake I baked,how sad.Been thinking bout the cake lately,ok lol?

Im so tanned now cause of all this practice and picnic,but its worth it..somehow.

Well...now its time for me to have my fair skin back!! after so long,haha ima just gonna stay at home until this face right here be fair once more.Since there no more sports or anything after this,as sad as that may sound but its true alright nothing after this..ohh,how much i miss using my sport shoe,hahahha.just gonna let it be there full with dust,lol and gaining weight? T.T

Did i mention I've been coughing for idk how many weeks,since I come back from camp!

Cough cough coughing none stop,eat medicine somehow useless duh ofcourse useless if I only eat when I feel like to.Lol.And i hate PMS-ing I've been puking all night last night.. Its the worst feeling ever,you dont want to know.After eating medicine,it felt much better.

Sometimes,life is unfair you know?

Ok,gtg eat medicine now..Bye

Holidays is here

Hello everyone!Yes yes,a week holidays are finally here!

Finally I get to sleep and wake up late,so glaadd :)But,my test is right after the holidays.What a way to spoil my holidays,gotta study or else you know what.And wooaahhh!It has been ages since the last time I updated this blog,totally forgot that I got blog.Sorry!heh.Been very busy and lazy as usual.Din't actually online for the pass few weeks,was too lazy.Theres nothing much anyway,but that doesn't explain why I din't update my blog for months.Heh.Anywayyyy,can't believe its the month of March already!So fast,don't you think?

Its my dad's birthday today!Happy birthday daddy!Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki selalu,saya sayang daddy saya :) Thank you for everything <3 :)

Moving along,
Have you guys been in the situation when you got nothing to year but your wardrobe is full with cloths?
Wait,all girls has been in that situation.Its like nothing is there while everything is there,theres just nothing nor close to perfect.When you wanna wear that something,it went missing or you couldn't find it.Your room will end up very messy and still got nothing to wear!In the end you'll end up using the first thing you wore or something else you haven't try and had to clean up your room.Maybe it didn't happen to you,but it did to me.Theres even some stuff that I bought but I didn't use em.Wasting much?Thought of selling them but blah too lazy,for now.Someday maybe.

Till next time when Im not lazy enough to update,Assalamualaikum!

 I don't know where I'm going with my life anymore. Everytime I find something that makes me happy, it either goes away or something bad happens and the happiness goes away. I just want to stay happy forever.